June 2016

A, If it is you:

If it  you, I want you to know that Im sure I love you very much,
Thousands of miles away, but through words I assure you I am touched

And it seems so innocent, the way we both choose to try and love,
and maybe it's soon to say romantically,
because its only been two months.

But I do love you as a friend, and I love you for who you are-
So if I fall in love with you, know that I have loved you from the start
and I'm learning-
learning to be patient
and learning to open up
learning to pour into you,
learning for you I have been enough

I am so thankful for your giving heart,
Im so thankful that you are weird,
I am thankful that you eat grandpa cereal,
and quite frankly cannot grow a beard.

I am thankful that you are snarky,
And that you cannot cook like me,
I am thankful that you like the outdoors,
Im thankful you love being free.

I am so happy that you are good at whatever it is you choose to do,
I love that you hate running- because I do it and hate it too.

I love that I met you at work,
I love that we did the same job-
Because then we had something to talk about through the months
when we avoided the fact that you were gone.

I like that your eyes are blue, I like that you use to write,
I hope to see the journal one day
that you scribble into at night.

If it is you Im happy i did.
I am happy I let myself open.
Cause you're one of the best friends I have made this year,
and for a short time you have been the best boyfriend.

And maybe we break up in a month, or maybe we see this one through-
but in the case that you are reading this:
I think it is apparent:

It is you.

(Written June 2016)
I love you, my husband.